It's one of those nights. I'm restless. Mind can't settle on a thought. Body can't settle into stillness. Can't pin down any reasons for it ... it just is.
I remember a day when I was a kid. It was a strange weather day. The clouds were gray, thick, and very heavy. It could have rained at any moment, but didn't. I distinctly remember walking out on the back patio, stepping out onto the small bit of landscaping my dad had put together to make the yard look all pretty, and looking up at the sky. It was unlike anything I'd ever seen, and have ever seen since.
There was a hole of sorts in the lowest layer of gray clouds...kind of square shaped...and above that, even darker clouds were speeding past, giving it a rolling look. I'm probably not conveying the crazy, eery look of it all, but it was very unsettling. After a minute of fascinating staring, I ran back inside to wait out whatever storm was coming.
That's how I feel tonight.
It could be that Rich is in Spain, so close to Morocco, and thinking about Spain is bringing up memories and questions and frustrations. It could be that I've gone a couple days without pain killers, and the level of pain in my back shows how much the ibuprofen has been masking, and that's scary. It could be that so many friends and family are experiencing snow, and I dearly miss snow. It could be that I've been cutting way back on coffee, and the resulting headache is making it difficult to think. Hell, it could be that my hair is too long.
**sigh** Whatever it is, I do not like feeling this way. A bear hug would be good right now. Or playing with a puppy.
The thought of tomorrow brings hope that it will pass soon.
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