It's been a while...

It's been a while since my last post. But I'm determined to be more faithful to this blog. Maybe I need a little structure. How about...every post includes a few certain things, like...

One Song: (Title, Artist, and why I love the song)

One Insight: (Something I've realized about myself, my life, or the world, even, that may or not be profound)

One Goal: (Something I want to do - a goal or ambition)

These things can be the staples of every post. In addition to my ordinary musings and rantings, of course.

So let's start:

One Song: "Dawn" (Jean-Yves Thibaudet - Pride & Prejudice Soundtrack 2005) - I love this song...it's the opening piece in the movie. Because it's called "Dawn", it also reminds me of myself. The beginning is a little soft and timid, kind of like waking up from depression as I did several years ago. It gains momentum, then suddenly bursts forth - like I did once I healed and began to discover who I am. It ends in a wonderfully restful pace...a pace that speaks of peace and contentedness. Like how I feel about who I am, and who I am becoming.

One Insight: The last couple days, I've realized something. I am addicted to food, yes. Because of this addiction, I've assumed that food is my enemy. Something I have to get control over, beat into submission, dominate. Over the last few weeks, something odd has been happening. I've been watching a lot of the Food Network, and even saw Julie & Julia, and while watching, I'm falling in love with food. I'm discovering a passion for food that isn't present within the addiction itself. I'm learning about food. Growing in my perception of food. And I can see that my relationship with food is starting to change. Although I cannot yet allow myself to get comfortable with food - I still tend to gravitate towards the candy bars - I am starting to look forward to the day - and know it's coming - when I will have a wonderfully HEALTHY relationship with food. :o)

One Goal: Well, I hurt my back last month, and have lost a solid month or so of training and gym time because of it. So the marathon is out. However, I still want to do the half marathon in December, January or February. I have 3-5 months to get ready, and I'm not sure I can do it. It would be a walk/run for sure. But it's a goal.

Okay. That's enough for today. I'm without a laptop for the next couple weeks, so until I get that baby back, posts will continue to be sporadic. :o) Hang in there!